As long as you are happy with ur life, nothing is impt for now. If u indeed lead a better life as compared to the past, y nt continue going on. But pls dun deceive urself, pls be truthful. I really learnt from this relationship. Learn 2 b sensitive when ur gf is hinting u, u might nt know it wld b fatal in future. Don't take thing 4 granted. Thats my mistake, i admit.
Memories were sweet, on-going life is a must to lead. Loving someone is abt seeing her leading a gd life and not abt possession. I learnt, really.
I really hope one day u will nt avoid me. No more excuses k? If u chose not to contact me, I respect that. No more false hope le, really. I really don't know how long my heart will be with u. Just like nature takes it course ba.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
I am back
There are so much things which I wanted to express. There are so many misunderstanding which I need to clarify. My feelings are indescribable, my thoughts somehow are sensible. I remember saying that I will be fine when the day I blog again. I finally get over with it. You may say I'm lying to myself. But I truthfully asked myself with the bottom of my heart, I had stepped across the dilemma of waiting and disbelief.
I haf to admit that I had spent many sleepless night thinking on the past. I pity our past relationship. I cried even if I am a man. I do haf the weakest side of me. I crumbled as I am not a saint.
Speaking in regards of the last SMS, u mentioned that u jolly well closed ur blog address. I felt that there is not a need to do so. But if u decided shut off, go ahead and I haf no objection. I am not a psychotic person that penetrate your daily blog. I know you prefer to project yourself as a strong woman in front of your friend's even though I know you are not. When things turn to this stage, there's really no point to see who's better and who's the loser. I really hope you will be loved by ppl ard you as mentioned in your blog. Be happy as this is the path that u chose.
It hurts when you were so mean. Remember to spare a thoughts for your future bf/ex-bf. Rem what goes around comes around. The way u r treating me now, might falls back on u in future. I don't mean to be revengeful but I believed in Karma. We r humans, we care and contribute 100%. Even if things doesn't go our way, dun be so mean. Let that person off with a path to walk.
I am not sure whether u received a missed call from my home @ 4+am yesterday nite. I dialled the wrong no. as I am so au fait with ur phone number dialing. Things change for a reason and I really accept that. The only regrets in our relationship is that I had see the wrong person. For me, when love is said, thats a promise and nv gonna change. U changed your belief. I don't blame u. Remember the next time U said I love you to someone, said that when u mean it and accepted his everything. Thats including his flaws. In the past, I accept your everything. THAT'S LOVE ISN'T IT? But youR love to me changed because you no longer abt to accept me as a whole. Take it as a lesson for us ba.
As usual, I am still someone you can turn to when u need me. I am still here okie? As a friend if u wish to put it in that way. Gd bye for now. I am tired and need a gd rest too. Gd nite 2 u.
I haf to admit that I had spent many sleepless night thinking on the past. I pity our past relationship. I cried even if I am a man. I do haf the weakest side of me. I crumbled as I am not a saint.
Speaking in regards of the last SMS, u mentioned that u jolly well closed ur blog address. I felt that there is not a need to do so. But if u decided shut off, go ahead and I haf no objection. I am not a psychotic person that penetrate your daily blog. I know you prefer to project yourself as a strong woman in front of your friend's even though I know you are not. When things turn to this stage, there's really no point to see who's better and who's the loser. I really hope you will be loved by ppl ard you as mentioned in your blog. Be happy as this is the path that u chose.
It hurts when you were so mean. Remember to spare a thoughts for your future bf/ex-bf. Rem what goes around comes around. The way u r treating me now, might falls back on u in future. I don't mean to be revengeful but I believed in Karma. We r humans, we care and contribute 100%. Even if things doesn't go our way, dun be so mean. Let that person off with a path to walk.
I am not sure whether u received a missed call from my home @ 4+am yesterday nite. I dialled the wrong no. as I am so au fait with ur phone number dialing. Things change for a reason and I really accept that. The only regrets in our relationship is that I had see the wrong person. For me, when love is said, thats a promise and nv gonna change. U changed your belief. I don't blame u. Remember the next time U said I love you to someone, said that when u mean it and accepted his everything. Thats including his flaws. In the past, I accept your everything. THAT'S LOVE ISN'T IT? But youR love to me changed because you no longer abt to accept me as a whole. Take it as a lesson for us ba.
As usual, I am still someone you can turn to when u need me. I am still here okie? As a friend if u wish to put it in that way. Gd bye for now. I am tired and need a gd rest too. Gd nite 2 u.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Going for a break
Finally I am going for a break. Finally I woke up from my false hope. Ask yourself this - don't you feel a single thing when I am so depressed? Is your tears all dried up? Over the phone, I felt nothing from you. I know it was all over and I am forcing myself to accept the fact.
Love can't be explained. Relationship is unpredictable. Don't put too much in it because you never know one day you will fall down. The deeper you fall into it, the hardest it's to climb up. I had a great fall. When I tried to pull myself up with some hope, you pushes me down with your cold shoulder and harsh words. I don't blame you for being so harsh to me because I know you don't wanna give me any false hope. You want me to continue my life without you because you are happy with your current life.
That's selfish in a just ended relationship. Everyone will think about themselves first. My life is nothing concern you. Your life that you are happy with, is your concern. But I know I am not selfish. I know myself well. I do care even everything's had ended.
Don't trust anyone saying I love you forever because that person might said it when the love is that strong. Remember love is unpredictable? Love was that strong for a moment of time. There was this point of time where you think nothing gonna change. But still, love can change at any time. Love can turn to a friendship. It will be hard to adapt and believe. But that's life? Even if you failed. Don't give up pursuing. One day love can be rediscover. One day there will be hope. Let's be friend and keep an open heart.
Past was history - I know. No one can turn back time, returning back to the past. Move on tarts.
Presence is what up for grab - Let's be friend's and wish her all the best. Please don't hold her tightly because you are nobody in her heart now.
No one know what future lies - May be one fine day she will realise. May be not. But who really knows what future will really lies?
That will be my last blog entry for a very long time. I need time to reflect on my mistake and will blog again one day when I am fine. Don't worry about me. I will be fine one day.
I don't know how long it will take because I am just a lost soul for now....
Love can't be explained. Relationship is unpredictable. Don't put too much in it because you never know one day you will fall down. The deeper you fall into it, the hardest it's to climb up. I had a great fall. When I tried to pull myself up with some hope, you pushes me down with your cold shoulder and harsh words. I don't blame you for being so harsh to me because I know you don't wanna give me any false hope. You want me to continue my life without you because you are happy with your current life.
That's selfish in a just ended relationship. Everyone will think about themselves first. My life is nothing concern you. Your life that you are happy with, is your concern. But I know I am not selfish. I know myself well. I do care even everything's had ended.
Don't trust anyone saying I love you forever because that person might said it when the love is that strong. Remember love is unpredictable? Love was that strong for a moment of time. There was this point of time where you think nothing gonna change. But still, love can change at any time. Love can turn to a friendship. It will be hard to adapt and believe. But that's life? Even if you failed. Don't give up pursuing. One day love can be rediscover. One day there will be hope. Let's be friend and keep an open heart.
Past was history - I know. No one can turn back time, returning back to the past. Move on tarts.
Presence is what up for grab - Let's be friend's and wish her all the best. Please don't hold her tightly because you are nobody in her heart now.
No one know what future lies - May be one fine day she will realise. May be not. But who really knows what future will really lies?
That will be my last blog entry for a very long time. I need time to reflect on my mistake and will blog again one day when I am fine. Don't worry about me. I will be fine one day.
I don't know how long it will take because I am just a lost soul for now....
Friday, January 11, 2008
My Decision
I had decided and nothing gonna change my mind. I had told you what I felt and my direction. Hope that you will not feel too troubled over my approach. I know u might accepted a relationship and dunno hw 2 put it to me. You denied that strongly and claimed that I was thinking too much. Am I realli thinking too much ?
Forget about the past, forget about whatever unhappy things happened in 2007. In 2008, I am gonna start afresh. I constantly remind myself that.
Forget about the past, forget about whatever unhappy things happened in 2007. In 2008, I am gonna start afresh. I constantly remind myself that.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Woke up
I am trying hard to get out of the trouble. I was depressed and was amazed that you did it easily over the past one month. May be someone who given up things can easily pick up another. The party who gets dumped will be the saddest on Earth. I am belonging to that category and now I am trying very hard to get over. The avoiding stage is over. Now I had to really face the situation. It's cruel and that's love! Either you make it or died horribly.
I had a phone conversation with one friend yesterday. I was still trapped inside the circle. I drank some when I was freaking tired. I collapsed once again. She talked some sense to me. She scolded me. Thanks for waking me up on the right time. Sometimes there's no reason for a failed relationship and I shouldn't persist in getting an explanation. Get over with it and continue with life. Life isn't about a girl you loved that stopped loving you. At least you hold those sweet and precious moments in life. At least you spent her 1st day on her 20's life.
Yes, things fall apart and turns abit nasty in the ending stage. Please don't blame her, please blessed her and be friend's. Let her pursue her life and stop haunting around her. She need a life too. Let her adapt her life without me. Only treat her as a friend when you are ready because if you still hold that little false hope, you will never ever get out from it. Do not put too much in a relationship because there isn't a guaranteed love. Do trust in true love that you once had and continued to believe in it.
She has the freedom to make friends and eventually fall into love again. Even if that's not you, so what? 18 months were not long nor too short, but take it as a lesson learnt and not to dwell on it anymore. Look up and walk forward Hendry. You knew her very well that she will never look back when she had made her decision. Definitely she will never turn back to you. Be friend's with a open heart even thought it will be weird. It's always better to have a friend around you then a stranger that never concern you.
Thanks Patsy for the advice and I appreciate that. Sorry for not remembering your birthday for the past 4 years. Rest assure that your birthday will never be forgotten this yr. =)
I had a phone conversation with one friend yesterday. I was still trapped inside the circle. I drank some when I was freaking tired. I collapsed once again. She talked some sense to me. She scolded me. Thanks for waking me up on the right time. Sometimes there's no reason for a failed relationship and I shouldn't persist in getting an explanation. Get over with it and continue with life. Life isn't about a girl you loved that stopped loving you. At least you hold those sweet and precious moments in life. At least you spent her 1st day on her 20's life.
Yes, things fall apart and turns abit nasty in the ending stage. Please don't blame her, please blessed her and be friend's. Let her pursue her life and stop haunting around her. She need a life too. Let her adapt her life without me. Only treat her as a friend when you are ready because if you still hold that little false hope, you will never ever get out from it. Do not put too much in a relationship because there isn't a guaranteed love. Do trust in true love that you once had and continued to believe in it.
She has the freedom to make friends and eventually fall into love again. Even if that's not you, so what? 18 months were not long nor too short, but take it as a lesson learnt and not to dwell on it anymore. Look up and walk forward Hendry. You knew her very well that she will never look back when she had made her decision. Definitely she will never turn back to you. Be friend's with a open heart even thought it will be weird. It's always better to have a friend around you then a stranger that never concern you.
Thanks Patsy for the advice and I appreciate that. Sorry for not remembering your birthday for the past 4 years. Rest assure that your birthday will never be forgotten this yr. =)
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Friend's
I had made my decision and now it your say. Amazingly,I msg you and asked to be your friend's. I do not have any evil thoughts and plainly want to see you going well. May be another friend's beside you might be better. Someone who can listen to your sorrows and give you advice.
Thats my intention and let's c whats ur respond. No one can luff at me cause I knw what I am doing.
Thats my intention and let's c whats ur respond. No one can luff at me cause I knw what I am doing.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Nokia N82
Brought a new phone earlier on. Nokia N82. it's time to change my phone aft 2 yrs. Samsung D600, Thats the longest service phone with me. I dont bear to trade-in because I have so much memories with the phone. I will still be using it, accompanied with another of my SIM Card and number still mantained. I will be using my starhub number forever. So guys, need not worried that you will not reach me as I am just a Ring away. =)
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