Day 13 of no alcohol intake, weight: 78.8kg

I had some insomnia last night, when anxiety was known for sleep,it creates a tension in placing yourself to doze off. Tired but feeling in my mind and ready to head off for work in an alert mind but rather a tired body. 

It's encouraging that I don't think of drinking during the night. I somehow realise that my body is adapting in the same way as the way of quit smoking. Resist in the very first few days and maintaining the belief which guide me down the journey on the later stage. It's the very start of payday and hope today will be another new beginning of a month without drinking. It's not hard to accomplish and definitely a must do thing is order to sherd off fats.

After a superb run my first off, my body's engine runs in a stable mode and I don't feel frustrated that easily. As said, way to go !

Day 3 of no alcohol intake, weight: 79.4kg and 5km slow jog

I am equally pleased to be on the right track once again. Ended the night with a 5km slow jog. Can't expect much from myself even when the timing isn't as good as before. At least it's a good kick start as I vowed to bring down my tummy. As of today, my weight was 79.4kg and I want to bring that down as fast as I could.

I meant business. Fat will bring down a person self esteem. I noticed that I did not change my facebook profile picture that much as selfie is not a trend for me anymore. My hair became stubbornly hard and unable to style as before, it's because of the food intake which causes the change. I want a change in me in term of physical appearance.

Look good feel good. Food is something which I can't compromise on so I will have to go for the harder way of losing weight by exercising more.

How long can this stint last? Hope it can last as long as It could.

Cough syrup as a substitute from drinking?

Will there be a perfect substitute from drinking? My 'beer belly' is alarming huge to the degree of exploding. My uniform can no longer hold the horizontal growth of my body and showing sign of tearing and expose of my flesh meat. I have to do something soon and this something got to be drastic and effective. It is always a love-hate relationship with the bottle of beer.

Have I ask myself deep down on the reason for drinking? Feeling cloud nine after intoxication or the blood running in me that is calling the injection of the alcohol. An addiction or I should say a habit should be eliminated from my life, totally I guess not. But by maintaining the tie with it will make you fall deeper just like the demon of tobacco. I can't be social on drinking and smoking for sure, been there done that.

Moving on, a temporary substitute is imminent. Got hold of 2 bottles of cough syrup from the result of MC during the monthly in-service. I know it is not a good solution, a temporary one can at least somehow curb my urge in drinking. Its the first day of June 2015 and hope it will be a good month-head start of non drinking.

Half a bottle of those cough syrup could give me the highness and I am preparing to fall deep sleep with the aid of such abuse, may be for now.

Night world.