Proud of being a Singaporean ?

Back to the reality. I felt that life in Thailand is a fiction. May be I'm just too bored over my life here that I need a getaway - by not coming back.

My parents were transmitting bad news at home when I'm back, nothing good which I can churn out from. May be Singapore's life is like that, we tend to get numb over it and soon discover the simplicity of others' countries. I'm born here and no more complaining as racial/societal remarks are the hot topic here, not another Anton Casey who posted online remarks that the public transport commuters here are stint and that he's asking his son to wash off the stretch after the mrt ride.

Regardless of race, language or religion. We are humans in this world behaving in such a difference way. Can I do something to change my life?

Cruelty of going through a failed love

Love hurts. My friend was totally whacked by the reality and cruelty of money. He went to Pattaya, 100km away from BKK to meet with someone whom he thought was in love with. In exchange was heart broken. She has a boyfriend who are able to take care of her family and the truth only unveil when we are there. Everyday was filled with sadness as he watched closely on her before we head back BKK. The bus left, the emotions for her to detach when she immediately put her status in Facebook 'in a relationship' . How cruel is she, only to make my friend know that - forget about me and move on for someone better. Easier said than done.

Why should we love someone so painfully? If love should be that way, I rather be someone without any emotions. Not meant to be heartless but isn't better for us to feel that way if love is not something we want to be in a situation of - heartbroken. 

Quarrel, Cold War. I think I'm just sick of being in that shoe, even not bothering for being labelled as Casanova. It's back here, back to reality. Back to my bed and it's not making me sleepy even it's 5am. I think I've lost my love for my bed.

I hope not...

Shutting down my mind from Singapore

It's the end of the 6 days of bkk trip with alcohol at night, 6 days in a row. Heading off to pattaya now in a bus with an hour to reach. Along the way,met up with some new peoples and learnt a few Thai words and took many nice songs off the club. Trying to become a protester after buying some props which I think the final product has a good effect as a whole. Mum's worry about me due to the bkk that applied the state of emergency on 23 Jan. I'm fine and even actively using my online apps, uploading photos in Instagram and Facebook. I'm enjoying every bits of my time without smoking.

The day past by like a flying arrow and it's almost come to an end. I'm glad I did not leave any sadness like what I'd done in the past. 

Met Nest, Justin's cousin who bring us around everyday. Although he can't speak good English but he's a funky guy who joke a lot.

Met Eve. Someone who take care of me in Chiang Mai during the last trip and it's feeling good to see her once again and got herself a boyfriend. Visited her at her work place - Marriott hotel, with a fine dining couping on an expensive price tag and it scares two of my friends here. - Xiang Wei and Joseph. A steak here cost more than a hundred sin dollar.

Joseph, a complete stranger whom we met here in the airport, friend of friend of justin. Coincidentally he's here alone from Singapore and arrived almost the same time as us. A young fellow that we meet everyday. Somehow to compensate a friend who's not here. Not too lonely everyday when I'm alone in the hotel mostly drunk at night. 

Still in the bus blogging with the small keyboard of my hp. I think the only way to go far, is really to go slow.

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Pointing fingers on the demon

This is devil. Maintaining the tough time of 6 days of non-smoking in Thailand.

a BIG BIG BIG test for me in Bangkok

16th Jan

1925hrs, Sg time

1825hrs Bkk time

(Corrected time)

Offline mode - Currently on the plane to Bangkok, embarking the 10 days journey. It's crucial for this period. Tendency of smoking is exceptionally high due to past overseas track record. I can feel the urge of it at the airport earlier on. Been sneezing for awhile and what's wrong with me? 

The nicotine immunity was lifted once I was leaving the state, the curse I wanted to break free from and it's a big test for someone who have just quit for half a month. I am not spreading my anti smoking campaign anymore cause I've failed so many times. Adamant tarts, keep going till the day you died.

Political unrest in Thailand now and I know it's not the right time to go. But flight and hotel were all set before the election issue of the Thai political opposition party took place. I would not know what to expect there but I guess many shops would be closed and a lot of work on my foots as public transport like taxi is greatly affected. Way back in 2010, my first trip there were also affected by political unrest and I hope this time round it shouldn't be a big issue but it caused one of my friend to back off. 1 down 2 to go. :)

The plane should be touching down real soon, I will try and squeeze every bit of my hidden super power to resist and prevail. Stay tune. 

Bye Singapore, not until 25th Jan!

New hairstyle for cny 2014

Finally have the courage to try out the new hairstyle - undercut. It's the trend hairstyle for now and both side of my hair was no.1 haircut. The hairdresser praised me for my new hairstyle, wondering was it because of the price hike for cny or wanting me to frequent visit the salon again. 

Personally, I think it's better than I've expected. Judgement call, your say.

48 hours without nicotine intake

6 days without alcohol

12 days without smoke

48 hours without patching, starting not to  rely on the patch and it's magical of what I've achieved. But how long can that last? Weight is not going down and was stubborn. The next big challenge to bring down to below 70. 2kg to go!

Heading to Lee Mei Ling's wedding now at Park Royal Hotel. Another friends married but looking at few of my cousins wedding life, it's seem redundant and meaningless to just married for the sake of it. I think I gonna be single , for as long as the world spins.

New bus service to orchard

Taking new bus service no. 972 to orchard. My first ride and was so happy that there's direct bus so near my block.  I can window shop awhile before meeting Kitt for dinner. As usual, listening to my mp3 on the bus, my favorite things to do in the past, I find it an enjoyment while looking afar from the window frame.

Second Dosage

To prevent myself from complacent, I've purchased the second box of Nicolette, which I've never done before. Usually a box of completion is sufficient but I'm trying to be safe. 115 hours away from demon. Last of alcohol was on 27 Dec, each and everyday of that passing is an amazing feeling. For the past 4 years plus , I've never stop drinking and 9 solid days can be very encouraging. 

I must self motivate myself and continue this duo battle, a continuous mental strength will keep me going. Never succumb to the demon and praying for miracle. 

Tummy Shrinking

Been running, soccer playing , quit drinking, smoking and less food intake with some ez tone machine shaking my belly hard. These effort were all shown on my tummy. It's shrinking! I want to be back to my usual shape even my age is going up. Imagining a fat and old uncle. I don't want to be labelled as that, for sure.

2.5 days without smoke, keep it up !

Killing birds with all my stones

Wake up from my night shift first off and finally decided to a game of soccer at Jurong east with a bunch of kids , invited by my national service guy. Last evening had a good run of 5km in 30mins with no stopping. It's amazing feeling without smoking. I really want to lead a health life but how long can it last? No smoke for 44 hours and never drink for a week. I less frequent to ATM machine as I felt my wallet's money can last me for very very long. 

Bid good bye to the ashray for months, accompany me on the sofa, under the table lamp. Where it burn away my sorrow and a relaxation corner. Now I'm so lost, the feeling of a newly broke up relationship. It's someone you met everyday suddenly have to distance from you for some good reason. I need to find a substitute, something which will interest me for long. Still thinking before the bad returns back on me. I'm doing well, I'm doing fine and this is the first time that I'm quitting both the bad habits at the same time. 

Hard task to say. Still, job still need to be done.