Phase I of room revamping was completed. =)

Yesterday went to a neighborhood furniture shop @ Bukit Batok with my Brother. Here’s my satisfying acquisition which I captured with economical budget:

Computer table- $ 69/- (Best Buy)


Gd bye to the 6 yrs old IKEA computer table, it will be greatly missed.


Drawer $69/- (Wooden made with solid wood finish.)


Display stand $16/- (Chip pine wood)


Also share cost with my Brother and brought a rocking chair for my Dad’s. Though I only contribute a little. It’s the thoughts that count?

My $1 system about less than half filled. Get more sunshine near to the window to grow. =P



I will be entering into the phase II of the project. That’s including repainting of room, final touch up to be done. It will be on hold awhile due to my Bike 2B mission. It will be completed no matter what, update you guys again as I am heading off for work. Cya!

烟火

是否还记得
一起看烟火
我在你眼里看到闪烁
冷冽的寒风把你吹向我
抱你在我怀中没想太多
爱情里的心动常常让我难以去捉摸
付出感情太多原来多情人总被伤的最重
想起你的拥抱这感觉
短暂纪念在你我之间
有时说变就变就像烟火
下一秒消失不见
想起你的微笑这画面
短暂纪念放在心里面
你说过的永远留在昨天
就当它是我最美的纪念...

I am out of poverty with effect from today, 25 March 2008. I am glad that I persistently hold my belief. Ta da! I am really out of the trouble because deep down inside of me, I know the stage of insecurity to others was over. Time to welcome the bright boy boy, Mr Hendry Yap.

Remember my 2005 friendster blog entry? That $1 coins system. During that time, it collapsed due to my gambling habit. I changed all the coins. On 20/11/2007, the system is back on track. Now the little cute angel is growing taller and taller as days goes by. As a parents of it, I hope this time round it will grown to full height. No matter what happened in future, I will see 'it' through. I am not counting on the amount and prefer to be in mystical. I will take a photo shot of it soon. =0)

I swear to god that I WILL NEVER EVER TURN BACK TO MY OWN SELF. I will be a better man for my future.

Mark my word as I can't afford to be a promise breaker again...

I am really grateful that you do care my feelings even until now. I know you read my blog and answer to my prayer. Thanks bao bei dear dear. I can't stop myself from addressing you with that because I know even if you left, you will always be my one and only bao bei dear dear. Too bad that no one can turn back time. A mistake is all it takes to lose the battle. I know that I had taken you for granted in the past. I am sorry once again. I am human after all. I take things for granted and only learnt after you left. Sometimes I was wondering if I changed for the better and you doesn't give up on me, will I stand a chance?

You will always be my life time regret. No matter who came into my life thereafter, I still felt you are my only love. Perhaps in future, someone will enter into my life. I might fall in love once again. But let me assure you that no matter who I met, you are still my most loved.

Sorry for being so emo on my last SMS. I know you might run away because of my reply. My love for you will still be the same as compared to the past. I think its even deeper. You left for another person but I still hope he's the right man for you ba. Thanks for leaving me and make me a better person. It a painful lesson to learn from.

I quit gambling for your sake. I will try to be a family man and treat my parents with all my heart and soul. I will respect elderly with no nonsense. I will fulfill all the empty promises which I never provide you. I will quit smoking for you because that's my biggest disappointment which I fault on you.

I will still hope for miracle. That slim chance. That foolish me thinkings. I am just like a drunk person who doesn't wish to be sober. Let me be naive in our relationship because you haven't say break off until now. I still treat you like a two timer bao bei.

Enough of my silly thoughts. I think I am abit tipsy. Time to sleep now as I am left with 3 hrs and 23 mins before my morning shift starts. Once again, thanks thanks for the SMS today because it really mean alot to me...

Thinking things through.

No matter how you changed your blog layouts by removing the achieves and photos, you will never get out of the shadow. If your past is that embarrassing to be reveal to others, than why not change your blog address and you can start blogging a new life once again. I am not trying to be a interrupter and dictate what you should do. I am in no position anymore. I am here to give you another helping hand, an option that goes well with the direction which you are heading to. I am your blog reader as you know. I know you may detest me from reading and doesn't feel comfortable when I reads. That's why you are indecisive of changing a blog address. You don't have to prove to me that you can mantain the old address. I know you can't and will soon change a new blog. Trust me, I know you too well, you will still change eventually. If you decided to change, definitely I am not part of the plan and you had decided to remove me away. I know and please don't deny. I accept that.

Our past is nothing to cherish, our heart felt moments will be left in the past. I know you doesn't want to carry with you now. Let it go, forget about me. I know you are doing well now. Friend's or not does it matters now? I know you can't accept me as a friend's. Stop deceiving yourself as I know you will never speak up for yourself. You don't owe an explanation because I had realised it all gradually...

You don't have to bother me actually. Whatever things I've said here is my point of view. I know you will never call, msn or SMS me anymore and I can't look forward to it. I know I am a stranger now. Suan le ba. You do whatever things you like, as long as you are happy with it.

Again and again, I tell myself that if you are 'xingfu', nothing reall concerns. Jiayou ba.

Growth Bonus 0.5 mth
Performance Bonus (PB) 1 mth

Yeah! Just checked my payroll account. Will be getting additional 1.5 mth of salary this coming 25 March. It's alot more than what I've expected. I will use portion of it to clear all my credit card bills. Finally I can turn over a new leaf. Now whatever $ come in is so important to me. I need to save. I quit gambling as promised. I really start to think now because you made me realise I am that unsecured in the past. I hope I am not too late for a change ba.

The world is that small. The connection is that close. Sometimes it's ridiculous to know that the world is so small. I am amazed. There are so many unknown people that I came to know, was actually reading and having a close view of my blog. Even thought no comments was left down, I deed them as anonymous.

Blogging was meant to make public and to let people have a view of my life, there was nothing to hide, true feelings. My past, my present and future plan are all in it. For the past 2 years, you might be checking on my blog to see another people's life. I just came to know and can't stop myself to believe that the world is so tiny. So much things happened lately and it there is this chance to let me know how you feel 2 years back. What actually transpired in between? I sympathized your feelings only now as I suffered the same fate as you. Don't ever hold grudges on me even we were strangers. To my knowledge, I know things had ended before I stepped in. I don't even know you in person. That's only when we are connected once again purely by chance. Let the bygones be bygones. The past was history. Stop living in the past because it's so painful if you remained in that position. I followed your foot step, I guess it's karma?

2 years back at the playground. A day to remember, the journey started on that playground. When I looked back, that was a sweet moments to hold on to. May be the ending doesn't look complete to me, but I had recovered 85% and will be eager to see what's coming to my life. An experience to gain in a harsh manner. A phobia that was not easily to overcome.

Just wanna be single for quite some time before I am able to kiss a girl with love...Seriously it's really hard to present the kisses to someone that you doesn't love. The next time you kiss someone, just visualise in your mind on how the person gonna lead you to...if you puked or don't feel alright, stop it and push that person to the ground because some true feelings might exude from your true self and stop you from progressing. Try it.

I know you will be reading this sooner or later. Although I don't know you in person. I just felt that you are lucky. You see the amber light in her. You are making effort to salvage the relationship. let me share my story. I see myself in you and I see her with my previous one. I was in the stage of shock, disbelief with some agony when my ex left me. Please don't take things for granted because there isn't a secured love. At least you got to sense something amiss and you are taking the necessary action to save this love.

I envy you in certain way. I hope you will success in your attempt. I am toothless now and was plainly mantaining a friendship with her. I don't know how you enter to my world of blog. Seriously I am not someone with motive. I sincerely wish you all the best in that. Don't worry about me going out with her. Because she still feel a thing for you and doesn't belongs to the heartless type. I put my testimonial to that.

Jia you Mr Xx!

Life's been tough working in the current condition. I was like kana last min Mas Selamat Deployment. Again, my coming Sat 2nd off will be burn! Tao Yan! After my team reshuffled, there was a couple of slackers and idlers came into my team. Those MC kings who always throw MC during the shift, you know who you are. This has greatly affected my morale of working. but I still persistently felt that I should not take MC, always possess with a hard working attitude. Remember I was paid to perform my duty. Seem like my team leader doesn't appreciate my hard work. Always tend to take advantage of me. That's sad, I was being 'misused'.

Can't wait to get my next rank and to be transferred out. Sick and tired of the routine work in the NPC. If nothing goes wrong, it will be in June 09 for the rank to arrive. Under Bo Bian act, I took over the role of a Group Leader in Jan 08 after my previous group leader left for Investigation Branch. Being a group leader, they are so many files to be monitor by me. Calling here and there to complainant and check if there's re occurrence of incident. I have this charbor policewoman under my group. Direct her to help me la. Haha..can bully her. She's an auntie la, altot she's 27 nia, her action damn AUNTIE! Married with one kids, always complainant about her work. Another newly joined officer under my group. Think I am one of the junior group leader in the NPC. My Team Leader is a no-nonsense man who will only talk about work related stuff. Always call my mobile phone and say 'Henry (He always spell my name wrongly), have you done with this and that?' Always like to threaten us with pusnishment if things were not done nicely for him. We are policeman, not police boy boy. I can't stand him!! Mama de, feel like one day TIO with him. Senior officer's I show some respect loh. LPPL, Tahan! Still not in talking term with another of my colleague. Diaoz.

Yesterday doing NPP duty, all my colleague engaging outside. Heavy downpour almost the entire day. Shiok! My colleague just drop by with a packet of rice and left. Pathetic me was eating alone. That's very sad to have your meal all alone. :-(





Took photo of me while resting on the antique sofa. Sometimes I was wondering if I look better with a dyed hair and ear piercing. I like wearing long sleeves shirt as it appears smart. I regret joining the force with so much restriction! Find one period of time where I will take a 2 weeks leave and do a ear piercing. I ought to pamper myself and do a make over!

Before day shift, went to The Villa Bali located at lock road, near to CMPB depot road. very ulu. It was an outdoor chilli out bar that's so relaxing! Heard friend's mentioning before but never been there. I loved the place to the rock! Can only have mocktail cause I am driving. Strictly no alcohol because drink and drive don't mix.

If nothing goes wrong, I will take full custody of my bro car by this month. Will be saving up on my March bonus. YEAH! Really enjoy driving with a carefree feel. I would want to explore further place around the island that are interesting. there are so many place to go. Enough of the Su ku life. SFH462L, bring me out more often okie! I know someone can make me realise my dream, we shall see!

Your blog was never clear since a few months back. I hope the person that you mentioned in your blog was not referring to me. If it's indeed me whom caused so much harassment,unnecessary tolerating and unrest to you by calling and contacting, I am sorry and will stop every mode of communication. I don't know if I had offended you during the call. I seriously felt that the misunderstanding will be too great for me to resolve if you think in that manner. I know if I confronted you, you might say that's not me, don't think too much etc. Under this fortuitous circumstances where we chatted on that day itself, I can't stop myself from thinking. I am here not to disturb you and no more misunderstanding which I can holds.

If it's not me, please let me know. Sorry for being so troublesome.

Feeling much more better after I had chat with you over the phone. Thanks for entertaining me for 45 mins while you were in the office. Although I am doing much of the talking, somehow I am able to talk to you sensibly. I know you are the only one who can offload the agony in me, the only medicine to my illness. I know you might might not be interested in my life now, I do hope we can still be friend's. It's really not easy, it's a challenge which I am doubtful whether you are willing to undertake. A speedy recovery than what I've expected. I'm 65% recovered. Jiayou ba tarts!

Someone actually talk sense to me. It had enlighten me somehow or rather. In my stage, anything which can pierce into a human heart's and emotional can really make a great impact on me and make me sit and think. Not every ending relationship require an explanation. As I always believe things happen for a reason, sometimes I felt that truth still need 2 b reveal even its hurting. Your way of ending a relationship is cruel and not appropriate. You will always owe me an explanation which I need to know. I will be trapped in a circle making rounds and rounds if you never speak to me again. If you do have a heart, please come fowards and help me.

I dreamt of you for the 3rd times in about a week. That's strange. May be you had varnished from my eye's in a quick instance and I can only see you in my dream. I don't blame you actually. Everyone's has their option of a better life and a better parnter. I just felt disappointed in you not because the effort and love I showered on you previously. It's the kind of treatment I got in the ending stage. I might lost to someone whom possessed a better quality than me. May be my way of expressing love was not greatly felt by you. People changes in different stage of life. Feelings will also fades when time goes by.

I am sensible now. I don't lost control of myeslf as compared to the past. You are not me and will never know so much suffering I am going through. May be you don't even bother about me because you had found someone in your life. You divert your attention and doesn't even want to take a glance on me.

I suppose you had block me from your MSN. I know it's not appropriate for me to pop you a MSG when you bf is around @ your home. I don't blame you either. I am ready for a heart to heart chat with you. When I said that, I am quite certain that I am sensible now. I am happy for you with the life you are having. I need an AAR - After Action Review with you. Will you have time for me?

Wiwawa wahjong is occupying so much of my time. Real life Mj too! 5 pok earlier on @ small auntie hse. Lost $67 but still gt treated KFC feast. lol. Anymore interested can join as a player @ www.viwawa.com

It's addictive! Im reaching Level 6. Hehe..We shall meet on the viwawa table and come one day hope to find more kakis in the real life table!

4 hrs of KTV @ International Building last night. That was the first time I sing so much songs in a few hours. It is the new branch of Party World. Ambience's quite comforting. Sound system was fasntastic. I think we sang about 10 over Duet songs. lol.

She's very stubborn, kept asking me to keep the $30 partial bill. There was this instance where we left the $30 on the sofa and left together. Kaoz. She really never return to take the $. I rushed back later and saw the cleaner had cleared the $ and a box of Strepsils Lozenges on the tray. I quickly take back the items and lied to her that I did not take it after she came out of the toilet.

That's very mean of her, very persistent in another sense. She's a weirdo. Don't behave and look like a normal girl. She's not gorgeous but simply plain. Don't be too complicated. How I wish everyone like me, everything also suan le ba.

SLB, an Abbreviation of SUAN LE BA. If everyone's use that as an approach in life's, it will be an easy going. Don't take things too hard, everything suan le ba suan le ba. Don't hold grudges and don't ever take things to heart always. It's not healthy and if things drag on for too long, it will affect your future. Hmm..thanks for the Strepsils and I was least expected to receive from you. I said I appreciated and was shocked to received a small thoughts even thought anything small to me will create a great impact on me. THKS!

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

I dreamt of you last night. That's a very strange dream which was implying some theories of love to me. I take that as a hint from me, constantly telling me what to do with life's without you. How r u? Hope you are fine now ba. That's all. Just feel like blogging this short entry, that's all.

Have you ever done that b4? 7 yrs after knowing someone, there's a meet up. About 7 yrs ago at Jurong Point, my friend went up to her and got her number. He was accompanied by me. Somehow or rather, we became friend's and surprised to know that we are very much in contact after so many years. Supposedly shld b meeting up at the leap years. 29th Feb. I waited at home for many hours after she was so busy working in the bank. There was this moment where I tot she back off. We meet up on 01.03.08, less than 20 mins after the leap years. Pick her up at her residential and heading to Cine leisure for the movie - The Leap Years @ 0140hrs. When we arrived, tickets were sold off. Shocked but still managed to get a movie slot @ Plaza Singapura 0220hrs.

The show is a must to watch. It was quite a touching story line where the actress can only met this guy once every 4 yrs, at the same place, same location. The way the movie plotted was near perfection.

The shows ended about 0415hrs where we went off to Pandan Reservoir. When I was young, the bus which I took drove past the down slope of the reservoir. I was puzzle to see how a reservoir looks like. Although it was raining, but I still managed to climb up the slope and had a view of the wide wide reservoir. She so called entertained me by bring herself out of the car. Holding on an umbrella while drizzling, walking down the lineal of the reservoir. It was a peace of mind. =)

Went for a short McDonald's Meal where I reached home about 0730hrs. Did not even light up a cigarettes when she never even asked whether I smoke. Took some photos and let's have a view: