Jobless after I became jobless. Driving is not my cup of tea.

A month of driving, I acknowledged that this is not my my next coming "career". Beside being fatigue, lack of concentration. I don't think I am fit for the job. Please be assured that I am not choosy over this job. Sometimes a wrong route, not understanding the road might diminish my sense of confident easily. I feel so lazy at times and it's earlier that I have expected. What can I do after leaving the force? I feel so lost with no direction ahead of me. My life is a failure as of now. My relationship with her is getting from bad to worse. I do'n't think I can provide the basic comfort and dani and mother. I think instead of forcing yourself to live together, it will be better to part our ways. It will be painful but at least I am not dragging anyone along with me. Let me suffer on my own during this darkest moments in life. May be I feel better when I am rockbottom.

Gone were the good life. What I am left now is nothing, nothing but myself.  I am agreeable for a divorce, for a reason, for a good cause.

Tomorrow I might be embarking on a new career for the next 3 years at least.

I passed my PDVL test on the second attempt on 19th Feb 2018. Decided to drive under Uber while I was heading to towards the last few months of my SPF career. It will be tough for the period but I know I will be strong and go through everything calmly. Nothing will beat me down and I know I am tougher after this whole saga. 19th March 2018 will be the day I will be collecting my Honda Vezel and moonlighting as a private hirer driver. I don't considered SPF as a job anymore as I am like a floating soul without any title. Call me and I will come to you, assign me and I will deliver to you. I am just passing my time in the SPF, so much so that I wished to resign at the moment but I can't all because of my wife's Permanent Resident application.

I am not sure if I am able to sustain both jobs at a go and let's just try out during this 5 weeks contract Lion City Rental under Uber. I am looking forward to drive because I know I can do something more out of my situation/plight. It will be tiring for sure but deep down of me, I know I am a willing party under this dire situation. I should quit my beer drinking habit because I don't think that I will have enough time to sleep, not even the thought of drinking and getting myself drunk.

QUIT when you are talking to yourself and the reply is YES. That will form the backbone of your determination on the fight. Find yourself a reason to do so and the motivation to carry on the fight.

Let's pray I will get the 100% concentration while driving and not meet any accident which will be changing my life, not again.

 

Wet tissue, coins box, phone holder, car charger, perfume bottle, mifold child seat booster (with cash card and plastic bag). I am ready to go when tomorrow come.

Hendry Right?

How come she know it's me despite during another number? Is that her sixth sense? May be she can feel my existence even many year had gone by. I will be her guardian angel, where ever I am.... will always be.

 

 

 

(P.S. updated a few days later when I am sober, she obviously search for the phone number in facebook and appparantly one our common friend is my main facebook account, *Face Palm*)

Trouble never come alone during this difficult period of my life

On 09/03/2018, I was called up to my commanding officer's office and was told that my performance bonus grading is D for the year. It means I will get nothing out of it. I had already expected it since I got an impending criminal case against me.

Things are not going well lately, there was a default judgment against me at the state court as my brother's insurance did not cover me. I was ignorance and choose to let the insurance to settle the issue when DIRECTASIA had repudiated on the accident. I was unaware that I need to represent myself and failed to make an appearance when the writ of summons were issued against me. It was festive season when my counter suit law firm did not wish to represent me as I am unable to fork up the claim amount with the legal fee (a deposit upfront).

I need to write an affidavit with my pathetic online excel sheet. Rushed to commissioner of oaths as to endorse on my document. Sent the summons at crimsonlogic in hoping that the district judge will be able to help me to put aside the judgment. Else I will be entirely at fault as there will be a default judgment against me. So many many things that came against me which came at cost., money cost. I am unable to cope it but glad that I had passed my PDVL on 19th Feb 2018 as I will have a temporary job after my resignation. I am in a dilemma. To quit the SPF as to start a afresh as a grab/uber driver or to continue to lead a meaningless life with a cpf contribution to my housing. It is just like a waiting game before my termination from service which will put a stop to the whole saga.

I just want to get over everything and done with it. On the other hand, I need to spare a thought for the housing loan. In a dilemma for sure. Please, give me a sign for a path to be lead.

First Day with Deliveroo on 10/01/2018

On 10/01/2018 I officially started my moonlight business - deliveroo. My daughter was fasnciating that the monent she saw the deliveroo bag, she asked for the photo to taken and that you go. Not a bad day to end with 2 trips with $13 earn between 6-9pm. Hope for some good days. Night.