Woke up

I am trying hard to get out of the trouble. I was depressed and was amazed that you did it easily over the past one month. May be someone who given up things can easily pick up another. The party who gets dumped will be the saddest on Earth. I am belonging to that category and now I am trying very hard to get over. The avoiding stage is over. Now I had to really face the situation. It's cruel and that's love! Either you make it or died horribly.

I had a phone conversation with one friend yesterday. I was still trapped inside the circle. I drank some when I was freaking tired. I collapsed once again. She talked some sense to me. She scolded me. Thanks for waking me up on the right time. Sometimes there's no reason for a failed relationship and I shouldn't persist in getting an explanation. Get over with it and continue with life. Life isn't about a girl you loved that stopped loving you. At least you hold those sweet and precious moments in life. At least you spent her 1st day on her 20's life.

Yes, things fall apart and turns abit nasty in the ending stage. Please don't blame her, please blessed her and be friend's. Let her pursue her life and stop haunting around her. She need a life too. Let her adapt her life without me. Only treat her as a friend when you are ready because if you still hold that little false hope, you will never ever get out from it. Do not put too much in a relationship because there isn't a guaranteed love. Do trust in true love that you once had and continued to believe in it.

She has the freedom to make friends and eventually fall into love again. Even if that's not you, so what? 18 months were not long nor too short, but take it as a lesson learnt and not to dwell on it anymore. Look up and walk forward Hendry. You knew her very well that she will never look back when she had made her decision. Definitely she will never turn back to you. Be friend's with a open heart even thought it will be weird. It's always better to have a friend around you then a stranger that never concern you.

Thanks Patsy for the advice and I appreciate that. Sorry for not remembering your birthday for the past 4 years. Rest assure that your birthday will never be forgotten this yr. =)

Friend's

I had made my decision and now it your say. Amazingly,I msg you and asked to be your friend's. I do not have any evil thoughts and plainly want to see you going well. May be another friend's beside you might be better. Someone who can listen to your sorrows and give you advice.

Thats my intention and let's c whats ur respond. No one can luff at me cause I knw what I am doing.

Nokia N82

Brought a new phone earlier on. Nokia N82. it's time to change my phone aft 2 yrs. Samsung D600, Thats the longest service phone with me. I dont bear to trade-in because I have so much memories with the phone. I will still be using it, accompanied with another of my SIM Card and number still mantained. I will be using my starhub number forever. So guys, need not worried that you will not reach me as I am just a Ring away. =)

Gone

she had left on 12.12.2007.

Many thanks to people who visit my blog lately and shown concern.

I am Better

It's raining now. Felt so cold due to the drizzling since evening. My mind somehow had stabilized abit but still it's hard to swallow that kind of sadness. Counting the days, the matter has been dragging for 2 over months and I can't believe I can still continue to this stage. Everyday is driving me crazy. U seem to be cold and much more unconcern towards me as compared to the past and I know I can't ask for much as of today. I jz felt pathetic and the only thing I can do is to keep on trying. I will make some effort and I really hope you can see it and treat me slight better den previously.

I constantly remind myself not to ask too much about u. I don wan 2 interfere much of ur life altot I am extremely concern on ur well being. You told me you drove a car with ur friends beside u. I am thinking alot of possibilities when u mentioned that. But I chose not to ask too detail because I know I am not in a position to be so KPO about ur life. Who M i to you now? No one can give an answer to that. But I still hoped to get updated information about u, that's including on ur life lately, at least the basic. You may call me when u r free as what I had done so far. Pursue ur dream in 2 mths time. I only want to spent the last few moments with u when u r still around. That's what I asked for and nothing else. =)