Fatty Me

I gained excessive weight due to drinking and quit smoking. Now I got a massive task to do. My big tummy is not going anywhere and I am getting worried. Sometimes I don't feel hungry because my big tummy is giving false impression that I am full. Time to go for my night run later with my NEW new balance running shoes.


51 days without a single puff. Respect me! =p

One Month of Smoking Cessation

Today marks the completion of my anti-smoking campaign and a step to my first milestone. For that solid past month, I did not inhale even a single puff. no joke and initially it's really not easy. If you tell a smoker to quit smoking, it's like taking away a part of their life. If you tell a non-smoker that quitting is not as simple as ABC (saying is easier than done), they won't understand. Only smokers will know how it feel and how much courage it takes to call it a day, this I can boldly say that I had did a great job to quit it.

Self-Discipline and determination were the factors which reminds me of hanging on. I am amazed by my self-generated motivation and perseverance and will continued to fight against the demon of tobacco. No more puffing away my life and burning off precious dollar note which was used to roll up the tobacco leaf.

ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THEN WORDS. Here's my action to prove that I can do it, finally after so many attempts.... Jia you tarts!

Another bad habit learnt

its 27 days of non-polluted air breathing. It's amazing how far I came from. Many people really impressed on my achievement and to be honest I was also shocked. But sad to say, I picked up another bad habit - Drinking. Spent close to 1k for the past 1 month on drinking. It's really no joking, ya 1k on hard liquor. I think I'm having lesser drinking kakis as the rest of them was fearful of me. I tend to lost control when I got high up, can bottle up a bottle of martel in less then 1.5 hrs? lol.

Nearly

Nearly break my 22 days smoke free spell. Earlier on very tempted to smoke but still I told myself not to. Heng! 8 more days away from my first objective....

Rock Bottom

The past seem to flashed back to memory. MEMORIES, it could be sweet in the past. However it will became moments of sadness when you start reflecting, the sweet past which could not be brought back. I dislike thinking back the past and yet I could do nothing and have no say in not reflecting. Sometimes how I wish that we don't survive on memories, at least it would not tear you apart when you are emotionally down.

The past was history and it became the revision book on today's life. How I wish to light up a cigarette but I could not. How I wish to hear from you, a word of encouragement which will keep me going but you were gone for long. How could you do all these to a fragile me, when the day you left without much saying. I am still pondering. I am awaiting for a day to tell you that I finally quit smoking and how much suffering I'd been throughout the process. April's fool day is around the corner and I will don on my clown suit and make everyone around me happy, except the stupid me. Wish you all the best at the other stage of your life.

Now I am just emotionally rock bottom and let me remains emo even if dawn is approaching.