Missing

I started to feel fear. Fearful of everything that's gonna happen in life. I have no direction in life, aimlessly passing each and everyday away. I went back smoking and was mild addicted to it. God, please help me and dispose all my excuses. I know I did not do a good job in quitting. All I can say it's my best tries.


I need support and I came to realise that friendship is more important than anything else. I concluded that there's no true friendship between men and women. In fact it's a thin line apart and you will always be confused by it. Anyway she will be gone in less than a month. How do I cope life's without her? My support in life was gone long ago till she came into my life. Be it in a friendship style or what. I don't wanna differentiate the differences between the two. I will just treasure the last moments of her stay in Singapore before she fly off to Aust for studies.

Best friend's for now...but how come can friendship last?

true friendship between man and woman?

Can there be true friendship between man and woman? Recent months got real close with her, can say we are real good friend's. But people tend to spread rumours about us. I treat her as a friend and din really bother about what other had said. But it get pretty annoying when people speculate with no grounds.

When it come to the opposite sex friendship, people tend to doubt. It's a thin line apart I guess. Anyway this blog entry was the first introduction about her. We drinks, have fun but never do anything intimate. Although she tend to get real close to me when she was drunk. Do you guys think that she have a feel for me?

Never take any advantage of her, no I'll never do that. May be I don't feel any love and pure friendship. All I can say that it get complicated when it involves man and woman?

May be I am giving away my new blog address to those I felt who have the rights to enter my life. I swear that I am going to blog with all the truth, no more surface facts.

Life

I reached to a certain point my life where I felt a brand new aspect of living it. Generally I felt that life's about pursuing what you aim for. Some people have objective in life, fighting their way through to their goal. Where as some people like me (the minority) felt that life should live in a way which your heart feels right. You can say I'm someone without any vision in life. But I can humbly say that I live a better life in term of internal health. Look at the people around you, on the surface they might be looking blissful. But looking into their inner self, many are so depressed about their living, misconception on what their really want in life.

It's only setback that you learn which make you more understanding the situation. It's the process which put youn in a deeper thought. It's only you can make your life a meaningful piece of story. My friend's, get a life!

2 months and amazingly, still non-smoking!

a soild 2 months of smoking cessation. I hereby declare myself as a non-smoker. It's an amazing feeling and to come to this stage, really not easy.

Sometimes I was thinking that things/habits which one's felt they cant live without, in actual fact they can. It's only after much trying and you came to realise that anything you can dependant on your willpower to achieve it.

Now I believe in Karma and you deserve all the suffering. Serve you right! ;)

Fatty Me

I gained excessive weight due to drinking and quit smoking. Now I got a massive task to do. My big tummy is not going anywhere and I am getting worried. Sometimes I don't feel hungry because my big tummy is giving false impression that I am full. Time to go for my night run later with my NEW new balance running shoes.


51 days without a single puff. Respect me! =p