I am going off to bed now. You are still on my mind. I tried my best not to think of me but I can't just help it. I sent you u sms yesterday and informed you on this blog site. Rest assure that it was solely a confession from me to you over the net. I will not sms your hand phone or send any message in face book in future. I hope you will read it periodically and let my feelings known to you. At times, I really want to find out whether you received my sms and read my blog entries.
How you spend the perfect 10s' day? 10/10/10 is a day where 830 couple got married and I sincerely hope you will one day find your true happiness....
- Haaziq
Monday, October 11, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu (only want you to know)
Ku telah milikiRasa indahnya perihkuRasa hancurnya harapkuKau lepas cintaku
Rasakan abadiSekalipun kau mengertiSekalipun kau pahamiKu pikir ku salah mengertimu
Aku hanya ingin kau tahuBesarnya cintakuTingginya khayalku bersamamu
Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kiniDi setiap harikuDi sisa akhir nafas hidupku
Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpikuHanya ada dalam angankuMelewati hidup
Rasakan abadiSekalipun kau mengertiSekalipun kau pahamiKu pikir ku salah mengertimu
_______________________________
I have had
Sense of beauty my pain
Pain destruction I hope
You're the last love
Experience the timeless
Even if you understand
Even if you understand I think my one you know
I just want you to know
The amount of love
The high fantasy with you
Tuk through the remaining time is now
In each of my day
In the rest of my final breath
Although all only in my dreams
Only in my dream
Navigating through life
_______________________________
I tried to figure out why the song fits into my picture. I translated on my own and I can felt the sentimental feel in it. One thing for sure, I only want you to know that the feelings are so real and it's not a dream. You might only appear in my dream and not infront of my eyes anymore. I am fully aware and I'm not giving up on you until the day you worn the ring..
Rasakan abadiSekalipun kau mengertiSekalipun kau pahamiKu pikir ku salah mengertimu
Aku hanya ingin kau tahuBesarnya cintakuTingginya khayalku bersamamu
Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kiniDi setiap harikuDi sisa akhir nafas hidupku
Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpikuHanya ada dalam angankuMelewati hidup
Rasakan abadiSekalipun kau mengertiSekalipun kau pahamiKu pikir ku salah mengertimu
_______________________________
I have had
Sense of beauty my pain
Pain destruction I hope
You're the last love
Experience the timeless
Even if you understand
Even if you understand I think my one you know
I just want you to know
The amount of love
The high fantasy with you
Tuk through the remaining time is now
In each of my day
In the rest of my final breath
Although all only in my dreams
Only in my dream
Navigating through life
_______________________________
I tried to figure out why the song fits into my picture. I translated on my own and I can felt the sentimental feel in it. One thing for sure, I only want you to know that the feelings are so real and it's not a dream. You might only appear in my dream and not infront of my eyes anymore. I am fully aware and I'm not giving up on you until the day you worn the ring..
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Hazziq Post to NS
I am like an owl staying awake in the night wating for your SMS/call. But time and time again, I was so disheartened. I know you are avoiding me for my good, you know I am just crazy over you. Since day one, I've never blame you and I'm aware that you do have a stable relationship. I shouldn't be in the picture at all.
Fate brought us together once again after a decade and I am certain that we met at the wrong time. You avoided me because you do not want me to dip further. But I am trying to control emotion affection, it's hard. I re-open my blog site and solely want to share with you on my feelings. It's not very pleasant to post my comment in the FB site for everyone to see and comment. We do have our privacy and this site should be the only place I communicate with you.
It's not a crush for sure and the feelings are so overwhemling. It's just over a month of contact and I felt so so much over you. I don't why I will have such a feeling over you and please don't say sorry to me. You have never commit anything wrongful against me, it's just a one sided affection I guess.
Remember that there's no sorry and thank you between us. But whatever it's, I hope you will remember me as someone special in you heart during a stage of your life. I'm really enjoying every moements with on the 3 occassions we met, the memories were still flash and sweet. How about you? Still, I have an objective for you to met, that's for you to quit smoking and test your bf on his sincerity. That's all I hope you can do for me.
Just don't bother me when I felt emo, it's just me. In anyway, I really wish that you could tell me what had actually happened for the past two weeks. The suddenly disappearance. For me, it's could be a bidding of good bye to you. I wish you all the best.
Fate brought us together once again after a decade and I am certain that we met at the wrong time. You avoided me because you do not want me to dip further. But I am trying to control emotion affection, it's hard. I re-open my blog site and solely want to share with you on my feelings. It's not very pleasant to post my comment in the FB site for everyone to see and comment. We do have our privacy and this site should be the only place I communicate with you.
It's not a crush for sure and the feelings are so overwhemling. It's just over a month of contact and I felt so so much over you. I don't why I will have such a feeling over you and please don't say sorry to me. You have never commit anything wrongful against me, it's just a one sided affection I guess.
Remember that there's no sorry and thank you between us. But whatever it's, I hope you will remember me as someone special in you heart during a stage of your life. I'm really enjoying every moements with on the 3 occassions we met, the memories were still flash and sweet. How about you? Still, I have an objective for you to met, that's for you to quit smoking and test your bf on his sincerity. That's all I hope you can do for me.
Just don't bother me when I felt emo, it's just me. In anyway, I really wish that you could tell me what had actually happened for the past two weeks. The suddenly disappearance. For me, it's could be a bidding of good bye to you. I wish you all the best.
Friday, April 23, 2010
I'm back!
Finished watching 海派甜心 in just 3 days. The Taiwan drama series touches my heart and I cried on a few occasions.
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Shocked Reply.
I think she is not just letting me go. Why is she kept on maintaining the contact string? By announcing her new blog address on the old one does not do any good to me. Why she still want me to browse her new blog entry, kept on telling the whole world that she was in a blissful stage, yet every point is not clearly indicated. Guess what, she actually MSG me on 08/07/2009, to my horror, she wrongly msged to my house phone. I am glad that I am at home and picked the MSG from there.
'Hendry, I think I really need to talk to you, you mag choose not to reply.' (sic)
When I MSG her that she sent the wrong number, she replied...
'Well. Sorry, Selected wrongly :-)' - 2336hrs
the reply continues....
Well, i've never mentioned anything about me letting you down or whatsoever. i've all along been talking about the misunderstanding since the start of this conversation. And one thing for sure, i've never looked back since i left. I just don wan anybody's life got ruin because of me. You get it? but since you claimed it this way, then so be it! At least the burden in me is all cleared now. :-) good night. - 0018hrs
......
I see. Now i know. Those written on the web are just fake and pathetic side of you. it seems like you have dual personality huh? Well, since your dual personality are hating me so much, i shall remove you from my life. I'm glad i left and never regret since then. :-) that's all i have to say. - 0729hrs
Every of her reply was so mean and harsh. What did I do wrong? To sum up everything, I perceived that her intention to contact me was to clear off all her guilt towards me. Obviously I did not reply her about anything nice, but definitely not as mean as her. She was just too proud of herself and kept on boosting her relationship with her boyfriend's. Whatever it's I am not gonna make her feel right to make that decision on that faithful day. Sometimes it's better to see through a person clearly on the early stage rather than to dip further and got hurt deeply.
If you asked me would I prefer to get back with her given the chance and current situation, I would adamantly say NO. It's no sour grape but the sincere answering. BUT one thing for sure that she had left a big dent in my feelings and I am doubtful that it will heal soon even after 19 months. I am still astonished by her departure, when she said a chance was given but turn out to be a false one. Even herself don't know what she pursuing. There were two sides of me felt towards her. Hate and Love, mixed feelings. You can love a person and at the same time filled with hatred and that applies after a broke off relationship. I don't wanna make her feel guilty but can't stop myself from doing so. That's when I felt that justice was served and the only way I would used to ease my pain. She is always in the right and I am always in the wrong amd that is what she want the both of us to feel. How unreasonable....
'Hendry, I think I really need to talk to you, you mag choose not to reply.' (sic)
When I MSG her that she sent the wrong number, she replied...
'Well. Sorry, Selected wrongly :-)' - 2336hrs
the reply continues....
'Nothing happened. Thanks for your concern. it's also not a sudden decision to message you. Just felt that there is too many misunderstanding between us. It's a burden for you and may be
for me :-) i guess it's time to clear all there misunderstanding.' - 2343hrs
.......
......
I see. Now i know. Those written on the web are just fake and pathetic side of you. it seems like you have dual personality huh? Well, since your dual personality are hating me so much, i shall remove you from my life. I'm glad i left and never regret since then. :-) that's all i have to say. - 0729hrs
Every of her reply was so mean and harsh. What did I do wrong? To sum up everything, I perceived that her intention to contact me was to clear off all her guilt towards me. Obviously I did not reply her about anything nice, but definitely not as mean as her. She was just too proud of herself and kept on boosting her relationship with her boyfriend's. Whatever it's I am not gonna make her feel right to make that decision on that faithful day. Sometimes it's better to see through a person clearly on the early stage rather than to dip further and got hurt deeply.
If you asked me would I prefer to get back with her given the chance and current situation, I would adamantly say NO. It's no sour grape but the sincere answering. BUT one thing for sure that she had left a big dent in my feelings and I am doubtful that it will heal soon even after 19 months. I am still astonished by her departure, when she said a chance was given but turn out to be a false one. Even herself don't know what she pursuing. There were two sides of me felt towards her. Hate and Love, mixed feelings. You can love a person and at the same time filled with hatred and that applies after a broke off relationship. I don't wanna make her feel guilty but can't stop myself from doing so. That's when I felt that justice was served and the only way I would used to ease my pain. She is always in the right and I am always in the wrong amd that is what she want the both of us to feel. How unreasonable....
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