Cousin's 'Love'

I was so pissed off yesterday after my Mahjong at my Cousin's - JR house. Another of my cousin who was staying across my block was not joining the game, I simply took cab back home as there was no transportation. The fact that JR drove his sister back to Puggol, his vehicle drove past me, when I walked out of the premises. He could have send me back along the way but he did not. If it's me, I will send even without much asking. Should play lesser Mahjong as I always the one losing, in the end no happy ending. Such a selfish guy who only cares about himself, thinking that he was the one who is pleading me to play even I lost so much lately, I nearly quit. If I don't play, people will badmouth me, saying that I 'hang up and sell'. Sometimes I don't really bother much about their comment, thinking that the whole family revolves around his family just because they are rich? You should only care on the harvest growing in your crop. There are so much negative things about him, he got the cheek to buy food back for his 'shot gun' wife, but not even ask the people who are playing Mahjong, which inclusive of his sister. Noble.

This afternoon he called me for Mahjong again, I simply brush him off. Though I did not spell out the reason, my blood is still boiling. I did not expect him to treat me extra well but at least the basic of being the elder. During the old days when I was indebted to him for betting, he even suggest me to borrow from Ah Long. What a fantastic idea from my great Cousin.

I am glad that I did not accept his request to be his 'brother' on his wedding day even I am available. What's the point of helping those people who don't even value you? Only those others who afraid to offend his parents, who are having 'high authority' in the family. I start to think that this was a funny stock. Considering that we are close during the childhood, but it would be no value when you don't maintain that.

I am just like that, people who treat me well, I will repay back double. Those who see me as a grass, I will smell them as a piece shit.

I smoked

Yes, break record for almost 4 months. While under the influence of alcohol, I smoked a few puffs @ 0242hrs. I don't feel bad on that. It's just a natural emotional flow which was kept at the inner me for months. No activation of panic alarm. I think I can manage that well.

'MZ' finally agreed to meet me after so much of talking on the phone. it would be in mid September. I always find her as potential one, if only she's interested in me. Keep fingers crossed and treat it with a 'normal heart'.

I'm so happy that my exemption for certain stage of the IPPT is finally cleared! Met a good doctor at Healthway and asked me which station I want to get exempted. Obviously is better than the previous doctor, when I mentioned my reason, he simply brushed me aside and said I 'Geng'!!! Passing for the IPPT is much more easier as I was looking to my promotion (Passing IPPT as the criteria) next year. it's not a bad day though, wish me luck me!

WRONG Impression

I am not sure why that I always gave a wrong impression of my opposite sex? Am I always expressing myself wrongly to the extent that they fall for me? Can't we just be friends? Just felt that I am an alien from outer space, no one gonna understand me totally, not even myself.

LASIK - Day 4

Doctor told me no sports, no contact with water so as to protect my eyes. I'm going crazy cause I can't run and my belly was upsized. Poor me.

Bali - September

Bali trip booked for the month of September. This will be the 3rd time I'm traveling this year. Ought to enjoy when you're young and single and to explore what the Mother Nature has for us. If there's a chance, I want to travel out of this south east asia continent in near future.