Only Just a Dream

I have a dream which was so vividly remembered during a sleep earlier on. I thought I could just noted it down before everything turns faint. It's the first time in my life that a facial image of a stranger that appears in my dream was so clear. She was a Malay teenager, stays in Bukit Panjang for 5 years, used to stay at Alexandra when her brother was schooling in Boon lay Secondary/Primary School then. We walked a street after seeing off one of her female friend, who met up with another Malay guy. I told her that I'm learning Malay, a word a day on an iPhone application, which generate a Malay word past midnight.

I did not have a chance to ask for her name because my freaking cousin called me during the most crucial moments. Damn, dream there's no continuation, how I wish. Otherwise, I would have Facebook-search her. Do you believe that a person you met in your dream would come to reality in life. May be he or she is situated somewhere in this world. The best way to capture dream image after a sleep was to remain in a dark place, close your eyes and try to fallback on what had happened. Take a pen and paper to note down the encounter (blogging also considered). Preferably to recount some 4D numbers as what my parents always does.

At some point, you will encounter Deja Vu, certain scenery, colors, situations, characters, events might appear to you in a familiar fashion. As what people always said, hope for a dream come true for life completion.

~ Author, a dreamer on 21st Apr 2012 ~

Another Battle On

In the past, I was indulging in the deluge of beers, squandering all my money on public entertainment. I've reached to a point of life where loneliness got the better of me and it leads me towards THAT wayward life. A bad habit that I'm slowly cutting down. It's not easy to fight loneliness especially when you are not occupied. Always felt that there are missing pieces in my life and I've yet to find the completion.

I am someone who is very sensitive to comments/feelings who made known to me from people around me,in a direct or indirect manner. The fact that I've turned FAT is an obvious indication. Whenever a long lost friend saw me, the first question is 'You have turned FAT!!' My face is more rounded than usual and my tummy is ever enlarging with no limits.

The time has come to do something about it before the WORD 'obesity' was labelled on the either side of my butt. I've started to eat wholemeal bread with tuna during work. The spirit that was used for quit smoking shall be implemented on the weight losing campaign.

Smoking cessation campaign, weight lose show down, stop-alcohol exercise. Life's hard for me as the battle is never ending....

Slimming Program

Today had tuna mayo with whole meal breads for lunch, was quite awful to eat that accompanied with fresh milk. The price to sliming is way too much than the scarifies today. Shall keep on maintaining the healthy diet for a period of time. Stay tune . :)

Job and Life, are they interrelated somewhere?

Just came back home after a lengthy chat with my cousin. We were discussing about life fulfillment very much on the topic. Would you leave your current job with an already-comfortable pay or venture to another working industry with zero knowledge? He is drawing about 5k a month and working for his employer, who will be inheriting the business to his family for the future. Having said that, all in all it's more to the career advancement that's achievable rather than an monotonous income with no security.

'I will rather do a job which is relatively comfortable living with passion, rather than a hater job with a high income. Will you be happy after all?'

Thoughts

Happen to browse through some of the photos which were taken with Shirley. Counting fingers, it's 5 years down the road since she left. Indisputable that she was the one I love the deepest and the one who left without any words. It's was saddening to feel, but sometimes I will still browse through her Facebook even though we are parted that long. To love someone, at some weird interpretation, that is not about possession. It's about seeing her well, making sure that she is well taken care of, even if I'm not in the position to concern about her. I'll be there as a guidance angel hiding at a corner, praying that she will be blissful and happy always. That's called love, isn't it? May be one day it will be diminished and weaken as days past by, the point is that we once in love and the feeling was so true then. That's sufficient for that period and there shall be no regrets even the ending was not a happy one.

I remembered in the past when we just silently broke off, I was in an intoxication state for most of the time, tend to curse and swear her 'wrong doings'. I did that when I was dead drunk and cursing her over the SMS. This shows my immaturity during that period. But in fact, I was the one who is so stubborn, don't really accept the fact that I was in the wrong. Since the matter was a history, we shall not bear grudges and live with it to the future.

I'm still looking forward to the next relationship even thought I felt that I'll be single for life. Such a negative thoughts but you will never know who you will came across in future. Let's pray hard for the next Love. Night...