Eat, Pray and Gym

15 days of gym visiting for the 26 days of this month, that will tell me how you how crazy I am. If you are aware of my check-in FB, I've been visiting quite often just for treadmill run and nothing else. Some say I'm losing weight but it's still a long way of regaining my usual look. You won't want to see me, I'm in a low esteem that I can't even feel like looking myself in the mirror and that explains how badly my condition is.

But lately, people said I've slimmed down and that's a fruitful results of my one month gym visits.

It's really hard to quit beer drinking, if I were to quit that, it would be a perfect achievement in life. :)

still the same old man telling a love story

One of my junior team mate went for a civil servant social networking program (in layman term, a match making session). He's 30 years of age and move a step across for such an event and he told us that he met a suitor! That was when I started to reflect on my age and relationship status. It's almost 4 years of single-hood life and I'm enjoying a mixed feelings, the carefree of a single man, the loneliness of a lonely man. 

I started to mesmerise the beauty of infant in the LRT train. A little small baby playing with biscuit on the baby pram. They are so adorable and sometimes I wish that I should already be there by their parents stage. But why am I just standing there watching the little creature munching the food?

Am I expecting too much from the other party? Should I just lowered down my expectations and give it a try?  No one gonna believe my belief. I'm not judging people but I do have my expectations. We talk about inner beauty when most of us when young, were attracted by things by the surface. I can say its co-related but never a sole judgmental factor in deciding your life time partner. 

May be I just fell in love with marriage...

Shikin - a message to you

With almost 18 months of Haaziq in my Fb profile name, I think it's time to remove it off so as to prevent unnecessary speculation among my friends. You can still call me Haaziq too. I know it's crazy but I'm missing you as someone special. We were not meant to be and I acknowledged that. I hope he's the Mr Right for you, really. We met each other too late, after a decade and there are so much things to give up if you are willing to leap forward and to fell into the craziest moment of your life.

I'm a Chinese and you're of a difference race. It's hard to blend into our race community. But hey, I'm still much more interested in learning Malay. Hope one day I can call you and we can communicate in Malay language with all the short mly texting? Moving ahead, I'm taking up Malay Conversational course in the Community Club nearby my house. I'm vowed to learn and willing to continue my pursuance in speaking/understanding the Malay culture. If one day you were there to teach me, it will be a perfect dream. But I doubt it will ever happen and I might not even see you again in my life. I understand your constraint and not out to ruin your life, be assured.

Thanks for giving me this name and I love this name to the max, hAAziq, 'double A, double quality', that was what I always told my friends and trying to hide the person who gave me the name. I just wanna let you know you're never be forgotten even it's just a short stint of meeting up in September 2010, it's sufficient. Do update me on your life progression ya? I'm always here as a friend. :)

With love,

Haaziq

Wai Seng and Mei Hui Wedding

Last Saturday attended one of my secondary school classmates wedding, Wai Seng and Mei Hui tied the knot after almost 15 years old of courtship. How many couple can reach to such a stage, such a duration, let alone marriage, in which some can't even last that long. I felt happy for the both of them, having seen them together since the school days.

During the wedding dinner, sitting across me were Wenlong and his spousal, Kimguan with his Malaysian girlfriend and together with Zhirong and Jengang who was also currently in a relationship. Am I really left behind on the lovable table? It's something you can hope for but can't beg for. How I wish to start a family, seeing kids running around the house with their cries filling up my life. Looking afar, it seems clueless to me as to who the other halve will be. Time is running away from me and let's pray that someone will be appearing soon.

Only Just a Dream

I have a dream which was so vividly remembered during a sleep earlier on. I thought I could just noted it down before everything turns faint. It's the first time in my life that a facial image of a stranger that appears in my dream was so clear. She was a Malay teenager, stays in Bukit Panjang for 5 years, used to stay at Alexandra when her brother was schooling in Boon lay Secondary/Primary School then. We walked a street after seeing off one of her female friend, who met up with another Malay guy. I told her that I'm learning Malay, a word a day on an iPhone application, which generate a Malay word past midnight.

I did not have a chance to ask for her name because my freaking cousin called me during the most crucial moments. Damn, dream there's no continuation, how I wish. Otherwise, I would have Facebook-search her. Do you believe that a person you met in your dream would come to reality in life. May be he or she is situated somewhere in this world. The best way to capture dream image after a sleep was to remain in a dark place, close your eyes and try to fallback on what had happened. Take a pen and paper to note down the encounter (blogging also considered). Preferably to recount some 4D numbers as what my parents always does.

At some point, you will encounter Deja Vu, certain scenery, colors, situations, characters, events might appear to you in a familiar fashion. As what people always said, hope for a dream come true for life completion.

~ Author, a dreamer on 21st Apr 2012 ~