Friday, November 02, 2012
29th
Happy birthday to me! My yearly wish is to hope that my family lives peacefully, be blessed with rich health. Cheers to my last 20's birthday!
Friday, October 12, 2012
Changing for the better
I'm now trying not to be dependant on alcohol when it comes to sleep. But it's so hard to adapt the kinda of life without it. But it takes time to change a habit, a self-discipline to maintain that.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Glimpse of her
Monday, August 06, 2012
4th August 2012, our 3rd meeting
We finally met each other exactly half a year later. This was the third time that I'm seeing her for about 8 months. Took a MRT train to Woodlands Civic Center while awaiting her to off work @ New York Solution. When I finally met her, she was standing there in perfection. At a moment I thought I'm dreaming when our outing was finally materialize after so long. If you still remember my post on the 6th Dec 2011, her name is Kitt, turning 21 on the 16th this month. Should I buy a gift for her on that day and if so, what will it be?
We went to Sin Rak Thai 2 pub at Princep Street together with my cousin. Bottle up a tower of beer when I know she was tired and need to head back home fast. She got a tight working schedule and It's so unbearable to see her home late. Before we leave the pub, she held my hand. I was at cloud-9. I feel like holding tighter to let her feel my strong presence. May be we are both drunk and it explains our weird move. I could not remember who was the one who start holding. It was so real and I don't feel like letting go. To my last knowledge, she suppose to have a boyfriend in Malaysia. I do not have the courage to ask her again if she has one. Someone told me to express myself when I'm afraid she might avoid me if I confessed, I'm in a dilemma. What should I do in order not to leave any regret in life? A bold confession or quietly keeping my feelings?
Regardless of her young age, I felt a sense of strong affection that no one can give me for quite awhile. I was touched with her sincerity when she was not that calculative and insisted to stuff money to me on the second occasions I'm meeting her. I was totally impressed of a woman's dignity and not reliance on guy. It's not about the money that matter but the kind of style she displaying to me. I've met woman who claim that it was a man's duty to foot bill, it that fair?
If you asked me about her, it was nothing but with all the positive remarks. She was near perfection, almost to perfection. I don't want to lose such a nice lady but what's the next step? She make me glance on my hand phone twice to see if she replied.
So, what should you do now if you faced someone who has a partner just like you?
We went to Sin Rak Thai 2 pub at Princep Street together with my cousin. Bottle up a tower of beer when I know she was tired and need to head back home fast. She got a tight working schedule and It's so unbearable to see her home late. Before we leave the pub, she held my hand. I was at cloud-9. I feel like holding tighter to let her feel my strong presence. May be we are both drunk and it explains our weird move. I could not remember who was the one who start holding. It was so real and I don't feel like letting go. To my last knowledge, she suppose to have a boyfriend in Malaysia. I do not have the courage to ask her again if she has one. Someone told me to express myself when I'm afraid she might avoid me if I confessed, I'm in a dilemma. What should I do in order not to leave any regret in life? A bold confession or quietly keeping my feelings?
Regardless of her young age, I felt a sense of strong affection that no one can give me for quite awhile. I was touched with her sincerity when she was not that calculative and insisted to stuff money to me on the second occasions I'm meeting her. I was totally impressed of a woman's dignity and not reliance on guy. It's not about the money that matter but the kind of style she displaying to me. I've met woman who claim that it was a man's duty to foot bill, it that fair?
If you asked me about her, it was nothing but with all the positive remarks. She was near perfection, almost to perfection. I don't want to lose such a nice lady but what's the next step? She make me glance on my hand phone twice to see if she replied.
So, what should you do now if you faced someone who has a partner just like you?
Saturday, August 04, 2012
Emotionally packed day
On July 26th 2012, paid a societal visit to Sunbeam Home under MCYS, get in touch with a lot of kids who are sheltered under the home for under special circumstances. They were so naive and down to earth. With their laughter surrounding, ended the day breaking fast with those kids. I felt so meaningful when it come to doing such a caring move, even if I had a tired day. The beauty of love is that It's regardless of race and language and it just a simply move between the two.
Also on the same week, my 80 years old grandma was temporarily staying with our family after my aunt had departed to Italy for holiday. Grandma was supposed to stay for about 2 weeks. However, with her senile condition, I felt a deep pain when I came back from that very day. She was lying on the sofa, watching me opening up the unit door. She was awaken by me and I asked she was hungry and she nodded her head. It was almost 3am in the morning and I actually bought her down stair for a quick bite. Grandma was frail and she was walking very slowly. A bread and a cup of coffee from 7-11 for her and we seated at the coffee shop nearby. Watching her eating make me feel so emotionally packed. It was overwhelming when a uncle seated beside drinking said I've a good heart. He must have presumed that I'm buying food for some stranger. When I tried that she was my grandma, I felt It was my responsibility to take care of her and when my parents are old, I'll ought to do the same as well.
Everyday she was just watching TV, eat and sleep. Life's so meaningless for her and there's nothing to live for. I'm not cursing her and can't help to think that life should live for a reason.
Have you ever ask yourself on your desirable age to live in this world?
Also on the same week, my 80 years old grandma was temporarily staying with our family after my aunt had departed to Italy for holiday. Grandma was supposed to stay for about 2 weeks. However, with her senile condition, I felt a deep pain when I came back from that very day. She was lying on the sofa, watching me opening up the unit door. She was awaken by me and I asked she was hungry and she nodded her head. It was almost 3am in the morning and I actually bought her down stair for a quick bite. Grandma was frail and she was walking very slowly. A bread and a cup of coffee from 7-11 for her and we seated at the coffee shop nearby. Watching her eating make me feel so emotionally packed. It was overwhelming when a uncle seated beside drinking said I've a good heart. He must have presumed that I'm buying food for some stranger. When I tried that she was my grandma, I felt It was my responsibility to take care of her and when my parents are old, I'll ought to do the same as well.
Everyday she was just watching TV, eat and sleep. Life's so meaningless for her and there's nothing to live for. I'm not cursing her and can't help to think that life should live for a reason.
Have you ever ask yourself on your desirable age to live in this world?
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