Last puffs for 2013

9th

Just woke up from sleep and rushing off to work. Brother was sending me when I took a quick puff of it. 

5th-8th

Usual puff at the centre. Shh. It's against the law. I'm starting to miss my cigs and I think it will be pretty challenging when the sticks get lesser and lesser.

My last 4. It's like munching the pocky pocky slowly till it's last bit, candle burning till the flame dies. I'm feeling the tremendous STRESS! 

2324hrs, inhaling my last puff. Patching starts a min later. Good bye to the demons in 2013. :)

What happened for the past month

Break off a friendship for years after a real confrontation at his house. We are not friends anymore, that said her mum paid her debts but not him. He can bring girls out for a fine dining and wine but not paying me a single cent for months, fair? It's not the money that counts but the creditability to fulfill your promise. He lost contact for months and I think it's just about time to express my disappointment in such a way. End it all.   

Another bold decision is to quit drinking and I think I've done pretty well for the past 3 weeks. Very minimal and now I'm outside blogging and going to a place of soccer watching coup with an option to drink. I hope I will be able to resist.

Smoking quite heavily lately and this is a catchy problem to resolve. Next year onwards will start the patching but I think the small dosage patch doesn't work on me anymore. :(

Investment plan I've signed up. $800 a month and call me crazy. That was a gamble and I admit it's hard to sustain. Quit drink and smoke will be easy to maintain that subscription. Saying is easier. 

Love at first sight

Pampering myself for the most expensive asset of my 30 years of life. 

30 years old manhood.

30 years ago on this day at the very minutes, my mother was lying on the KK Hospital and going to delivery me at 1657hrs. The joyous moments for parents to deliver their child, the pain going through the hardship at the operating theater is no guys can imagine and want to go through.

I do not think I am a good child to say. A child who always throw tantrum while waiting to be shave, crying outside a toy shop when my mother promised to buy toy for me after a bald hair cut. That was the furthest memories I can thought of and I was just a 7-8 years old boy. My primary school text books were always second hand to my brother and I always tend to dismay over that. My parents lecture me with cane whenever I am naughty and I was so afraid then. Growing up and looking back, I got to be grateful towards my parents upbringing.

But have I being filial to them? Human tend to disregards the little but important things in life which are small but essential to us. Wait till things has gone by or someone has passed on, to sit at one corner and ponder. We jolly well know it is too late to repent but yet we go against the flow of doing the right things. If someone asked me whether I am a good or bad guy, I do not have the answer for you. Everyone will have the good and evil side of them. Situation arise in a day to day basis and the good and bad will tend to fight over a decision.

I succumbed to cigarettes buying earlier on and thought I would had puff my last stick (now!). The bad taken over control but the good inner me kept motivating myself. Sometimes it confused me when I am not sure which direction I want to head to. 0624hrs, I inhaled my last stick of the box.

The bad and the good continue the battle after my sleep. Till then, a happy 30th birthday to myself.

30. No more in my 20's (my last few moments of tasting the 20's)

Tomorrow will be another battle day. You wouldn't imagine that I'm quitting again. Seem like this topic was replicated on my numerous posts. Some people started to laugh at me already. Most importantly is to maintain the spirit and keep going. Smoking quite a lot lately and almost a pack a day, I don't know why.

Why it was picked on the 2nd of Nov? It's my 30th Birthday! I doubt anyone can remember as I'll be drifting the day away. But still preferred many wishes which beats the present. 

I'm officially in my 30's, a scary figure to say.